Just Add Water

I had some what of a breakdown today. I almost feel guilty admitting that because I'm always the 'you've got to hold it together' type of person. To sum up why I had said breakdown is because I realized today after letting this build up for some time now that I have pretty much zero female interaction in my life outside of my Mom. This is just on a daily basis and now including when I'm in class. I'm referring to having girlfriends. As I've said before all of my girlfriends are either married, in a serious relationship, or moments away from entering a relationship. I, on the other hand, have nothing of the sort. I don't mind that because I have such fantastic friends to fill that void in my life. Although I do feel "complete" at this point in my life, I still know that there many pieces left to be acquired. It's difficult when you have no girlfriends to hang out with anymore. I've literally had the same friends for years, which these days is almost unheard of, but nonetheless I am still lacking in the girlfriend department. I just wish that I could call up my best friend (who is in a serious relationship) and ask her to join me in getting my nails done like we used to. I wish I could wake up to seeing her on the floor in my room asleep knowing she will wake up and we'll have yet another fun day together. I wish I could just call up any of my girlfriends and even have lunch with one of them once a week. The rest of the girlfriends I have live rather far away and each situation is worked out for the best. Meaning we see/talk to each other when we can. I don't mind being the girl in a group of a guys. It's nice to hang out with my guy friends and enjoy their honesty. I don't have to impress them or do anything special. And they always give me honest opinions about everything. I cherish what I have with my guy friends and I feel extremely privileged to even be friends with any of them. Friendship is just an important part of my life and I hold an extremely high value on it. I hope that something works out and I can somehow manage to spend more time with any single one of my girlfriends. Which realistically I should not have put forth this much effort when none is being put forth from the opposing side. We'll see just have to see how this particular situation works out in the weeks to come. Also, I wanted to touch on the feeling complete subject. It's funny how things make you feel that way. I used to think that I felt totally complete in my last relationship. I literally thought I met my match, my other half. After we ended things, I had to redefine myself and just start all over again in many ways. So in a way I had to find new ways to feel complete. It's amazing how much you learn about yourself day after day through the various encounters that we're subjected to. So here's to feeling complete. In other news, I wanted to touch on the Benny Benassi event. I had a wonderful time with Ryan and I know that I will definitely be going back to Cielo again. Benny's set was amazing to say the very least. I hope to have more fantastic nights like that as the warmer weather approaches! And of course only 8 more Well the damn clocks changed an hour ago and I'm slowly getting tired so I think I'll end it riiiigghhttt here. Until next time.... ;-)