Spring Break

This week is officially my spring break. However, I was just in Miami last week and I'm going to LA and Phoenix in two weeks, so I'm not exactly doing anything exciting for my spring break. Except for seeing Benny Benassi spin at Cielo in Manhattan on Thursday with Ryan. I've got this whole ass-backwards schedule this semester -- I have class two days a week and I'm off for five, so I've got all this time to just travel and dick around. To be honest, I like it this way because I know it won't last forever. And thus, soaking it all up as much possible. On a different note, I've come to realize that I'm practically the only single friends out of the majority of my friends. You would think that it would bother me to be the only solo person amongst my comrades, but it's truly not as bad one would think. Independence is a wonderful thing to have -- even if you are in a relationship. I've always loved being able to just go and do as I please. The last relationship I was in, I sacrificed so much of myself for that person. Sacrificing oneself for another is okay to an extent, but when you've nearly given up who you are then the line must be drawn. I think I am fortunate in that I can just pick up & go and not be held down by any types of real commitments other than school. I'm not fearful of commitment but for the time being (or until I meet someone worth while) I will continue to luxuriate in the world that is independence. I know some people mistake my bold personality as snobby or cocky, but truly it is nothing of the sort. I often feel bad for the friends that I have that are held down. The ones who have given up who they are in many ways for other people. For the sake of a title. I will not be one of those people to walk away from my goals just to fill the space in a title. I am going against their grain. I'm going to do what I want first before I ever settle into something that is considered a life long commitment. I'm not even referring solely about marriage, but other things such as a job, a specific location in which to call "home", a particular style -- I could create a grocery list of things but you get my drift. I just cannot give up what I want to accomplish in life for someone or something else just yet. I'm too young and I have far too much life ahead of me. Call me crazy if you please. I guess I'm just very determined young woman. In other news, Spring and the warmer weather really needs to get here. I simply cannot stand another moment of coldness. I know most people are in agreement with this feeling. The clocks change this up coming Sunday and I hope the weather changes to warmer along with. We'll just have to wait and see. Until next time ;-)