The Unexpected.

Forgive me for not posting anything recently. I've been busy with school the last couple weeks and getting my damn teeth fixed. As of about 48 hours ago, Chad & I have officially split up. It was his decision, not mine, and came as quite a shock to me. He's chosen to do so because it's easiest for him to cop-out and move back to Pennsylvania because he hasn't found a job since he was laid off in early July. Basically, he hasn't even tried all that hard. He's done a fantastic job at playing video games though, but let's not be caddy. He just feels like a failure here and won't admit that out-right so he's bailing on Arizona once his lease is up at the end of November. I had already began mentally preparing for him to move back home once the least was up and that would leave me with no place to go, so I would have to find a place closer to that point in time. He claims the split was for financial reasons, but its because he just wants to go home to his mommy instead of being a man, a 25 year old man I might add, and live in his mother's basement in a room with no windows. Maybe I seem a little annoyed but I have every right to be. I'm certainly not devastated that this has happened but I am hurt. He's known for some time that he's wanted to just move back home and he could have had the courtesy to have at least told me prior to school starting so I could have at least moved back home to go back to St. Joe's University. Though I will not be moving back to New Jersey or Pennsylvania because I like it here in Arizona and I want to finish school here. I've got to find a place to live pretty much by the end of this month because Chad's being such a cocksucker now that I have no real choice in the matter but to move out. He says the only way I can stay (until the lease is up) is if my parents pay the rent for the last two months. Their absolutely not going to put a single penny into this situation nor are they helping me find a place of my own, as usual. But they will give me the cash to move back home and buy me a new car if I move home, but I'd rather stay here and bust my ass to live on my own, finish school, and continue to drive my old ass car than move back home and live under their roof. They haven't even asked me what I want to do their just giving me the one and only option they know and are willing to give, which is for me to come home. Though it's easy for them to tell me to just come home because neither of them have ever been anywhere outside of New Jersey, except Florida, more specifically Disney World (which is where my mom currently is), and around the Philadelphia area. They don't know what life is like AT ALL outside their comfort zone so they don't understand my reasoning for wanting to stay here. It's a very twisted situation to say the least but I'm going to make it through and at least I can say that I tried, but more importantly at least I found a place I enjoy being, a place that brings me happiness. I'd also like to say that my reasoning for wanting to stay here, which is primarily for school, is a very legitimate reason to stay; although my parents simply do not see it this way. Anyway, school is going fantastically. I have really great professors and I've made some really nice friends too. Hara is flying out for my birthday next month and some of my other friends here, outside of school, are beginning to plan for my birthday outing. I've never really gotten to celebrate my birthday the way that I've wanted to so this year's going to be really special. I can't believe I'm going to be 24 years old next month! Wowsers! Well, I've got to call it a night, I've got class in the morning and I've got a lot of other things to take care of tomorrow as well. Just know that I'm doing alright for the time being and I'm actually happy that things are working out this way - as far as being single goes.